Crush on a guy.

Love or Just a Crush ?

Last night Something happened For the first time Deep inside It was a rush What a rush.
Cause the possibility That you would ever Feel the same way About me.
Why do I keep running From the truth All I ever think About is you.
You got me hypnotized,So mesmerized. And I just got to know.

Do you ever think, When your all alone. All that we can be, Where this thing can go.
Am I crazy ? Or falling in love ?
Is it really Just another crush ?
Do you catch a breath ,When I look at you? Are you holding back
Like the way I do ?
Cuz im tryin tryin to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away....

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Last goodbye.

Love.

I dont want to walk away.And i dont wanna lose u too. Sometimes the best thing to do is to let u go. Baby i cnt have u no more. Im tired of getting hurt. Im tired of putting up with ur lies. Look at me in the eyes and tell that u need me. Cos right now im leaving. I cant stay around and act as if nothing's wrong between us two. I cant live another day without knowing whr my heart belongs or is it for u. I know i did something better than this. I know i cnt do better than this. So why shld i even try. Im letting u go. This is my last goodbye.

I cnt believe u called me tat night. and thought that everything was goin all right. You let me on , got me thinking whats goin on. But i cnt thelp but to blame myself. For the actions tat i made so blind to see wat a fool ive been. So stupid of me. i cld've jst walked away and nvr come back.

Nvr come back and this is my last goodbye to u.

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Goodbye 2009.Hello 2010.

Life.

Another year has past. Alot of things happen in year 2009. The sweet and bitter memories. 2009 has been a hectic year for me. Financial,family,relationship and such. But this year.. i have a new year resolution.

1. To discipline myself in everyways.
2. Get to know as many guys as i want BUT not relationship.
3. Start saving ( $50 - $100 per mth )
4. Have a change in appearance
5. Smile & Laugh more

=)

Must try to achive this 5 things. You can do it siti. Believe in urself.
Happy 2010 siti.

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Im gone.

Love.

Remember all the things we wanted. Now all our memories they're hauunted.
We were always meant to say goodbye. Even with our fists held higher.
It'll never would've worked out right. We were never meant for do or die.

I dint want us to burn out. I dint come here to hold you. Now i cnt stop.
I want you know that it doesnt matter where we take this road. Someone's gotta go.
I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better, but i want you to move on.
So im already gone.

Looking at you makes it harder.
But i know you'll find another that doesnt always makes you wanna cry.
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in.
Perfect couldnt keep this love alive.

You know that i love you so, i love you enough to let you go.

We were always meant to say goodbye.

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Someday.

Life.

Nothing seems to be the way that it used to. Everything seems shallow god give me truth. In me, and tell me somebody watching over me. And tat is all im praying tat someday, i will understand. In god's whole plan, and what he does to me. Oh but maybe someday i will breathe and i'll finally see. See it all me.

No moment will be true than the moment im looking at me. Its in me. Seeing somebody's watching over me. And tats all im praying tat someday i will understand...

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One go.Many come.

Love.

Its been so long. And ive moved on. I never regret doin this. After the truth is out, ive finally see your true colors. And its hard to beileve but i have to. Today is a special day for me. I meet up with one of my guy frend. He's my ex but we've been contacting each other. On and Off. And today he fetch me home. Its been 7yrs since we know each other. We talked alot in the car. We laugh out loud. Jokes. He got a girl. But he doesnt seems to care abt his own girl. Well, hard to say about this.

I have 2 man in my life. One is someone whom i know for 3yrs. And the other 7yrs. Both is perfect for me. But my heart is not open yet for love. Still fixing it. I wanna take things slow. Let fate show me the way to a man i really love. After he left, man start coming to my life. One by one. Maybe this time i'll find the man who truly love me and treasure me. Its hard for me to fall in love now. One step at a time i guess.

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Go Away.

Life.

Im feeling so down. I dont know what im doing right now. I just dont wanna communicate.

no more laughter.

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