Life.
I never regret living with her. Maybe i think i did make the right decision to move in with her 3yrs ago. She is the most precious thing in my life. Seeing her in such a state really make me sad. I nvr tot tat i wuld only get the chance to spent 2yrs of my life with her. Thou she nvr see me grow up but tat nvr stop me from calling her 'Mum'. And i really love her as much as i love my aunt who took care of me since im young. And now, its my turn to look after her. Thou her condition is getting worse but i'll nvr fail to keep myself strong and look after her. I miss those days when we spend time together. I miss hearing her voice. I miss her cooking. I miss her nagging. And above all I just miss her. I cnt help myself seeing her in such a state. Its like as thou she's waiting for her time to go. Go far away.
Everyday before im off to work, i will kiss her forehead. Sometimes i wonder if she even realised im doing tat. At times i ask myself if im a good daugther to her. Cause i came home late every day after work. I nvr did tat puurposely but i cant bare seeing her in such a state. It pain my heart. And inside me is crying everyday seeing her lidat.
Im feeling the loneliness in the house. Its not like how it used to be. I used to wake up every morning and see her in the kitchen cooking. Or she will come to my room and open my window. She will cover me in my blanket. She will sing out loud and wake me up. She wil make for me breakfast. She treat me like a rose. She gave me room to grow. she showered me with love. But it seems like i have to do tat all by myself now.
And now, all she is do is sleep. The day when she sleep peacefully is the day i noe she's not coming back. How i wish tat.. i culd take the pain away from her.
I love you mum. And forever you shall cherish in my heart. I just miss you alot. I wish you hear me.
If only i knew...