Life.
Aint easy. Full of ups and downs. If only i can turn back time or know how my future gona be, tat'l be great. But unfortunately, u cnt decide what u want in life. You can plan and god will decide.
Things around me are getting worse. My mum is back in icu. And her condition is getting worse. The best part is, everyone in my family is deciding for my life. I feel so depressed. Lost. Pressured by all the decision they make for me. I have to move out of my house at bukit batok and stay with my cuz at hougang . Dont know till when. It was a rushed decision for me as i wasnt prepared for anything. Now im staying here at hougang , i really feel the distance with my love ones at west side. Thou i noe its still in s'pore, but i can still feel the distance in between. The long road. Miss them. The night life with them there is totally amazing. I dont know if i cn still do tat with them as now im staying here and i've got curfew. Its really stressful for me. To think about the travelling to work and visiting my mum in hospital is a distance to me. I dont know wads gonna happen next. I really wish tat my mum will recover soon. So tat i cn go back to my home at bukit batok and stay with my mum and cn chill out with my love ones at night.
Sometimes i wish, this is just a dream. Perhaps a nightmare. But when i open my eyes, its actually real. As for my mum condition, its really getting worse. I wish i culd take the pain away from her. All i can do now is to pray hard for her. Miss her alot But i nvr for once regret spending those time with her even if its only for like 2 plus years. I miss her. Oh yes i miss her.
It'll all get better in time siti. Hanging there.
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